Frustrations
1. I really want to be home at my condo. I miss it. But walking in there while it’s still under renovation depresses me. It also doesn’t help that I nearly had an asthma attack the other night because of all the dust. The contractor did not tape off the hallway as I requested. He left a 3-inch gap at the top. I’m actually quite angry about that. I told him repeatedly that I could not and would not clean up the cave-in and dry wall myself because I feared an asthma attack.
2. Because I can’t be home, I feel like I’m out of control with my finances. I rely on Quicken to help me plan out my spending. I open it up every few days, if not every day, and update the balances. Access to my desktop is key for good financial management. I am veritably crawling the walls because I am addicted to my finances. It’s partially why I am hoarding cash like crazy. I was a little afraid of sending my federal tax refund to my credit card company but I looked a Quicken on Monday night and see that it’s ok. BOOM! That’s $2500 I can pay off this month. All the rest of the cash I’m hoarding is for my contractor.
3. I feel fat. I may not LOOK fat, but I can’t fit into my Lilly skirt (purchased 2 yrs ago). I was hoping to wear it to a beach-side wedding last month, but I had to settle for an odd fitting dress. Way to go. All my pants are cutting into my stomach at work while I’m sitting. I am constantly uncomfortable. I admit, I haven’t made a lot of effort here since frankly I am lazy and exercise isn’t on the menu. My own vanity is getting the best of me and my wallet.
BLAH. June will be better. I can feel it.
Dedicated wrote:
I think it is time to re-enforce some positive truths. Depression is a terrible thing and is causing the feelings for all the rest. Maybe you need a girlfriend luncheon or a show or something that helps you forget life for a tiny bit.
Personally, I prefer drinks with a friend in the back yard on the deck. It’s affordable and generally the greatest pick-me-up.
What ever you do, don’t just accept it. Get up and get out of it.
You can do this!
Posted on 06-Jun-08 at 9:49 am | Permalink
Matt wrote:
I’m sure your condo will be 100% better when the contractor is done. Don’t get yourself down about it (or at least try not to). I know I’ve been frustrated with myself lately and just concentrate on the small things till things pick up.
Dedicated had some good ideas - drinks on a patio with friends works wonders for me too.
Keep your chin up!
Posted on 06-Jun-08 at 4:11 pm | Permalink
msminiducky wrote:
Perhaps it’s time for an exercise buddy? Or someone to talk nice strenous walks with while you
gossip? I’ve been taking a walk with doggy after work because my jeans suddenly *really* fit and I no longer need a belt.
Hope the repairs are wrapped up soon so you can be comfortably ensconsed in your own home again.
Posted on 06-Jun-08 at 7:53 pm | Permalink
msminiducky wrote:
grrr, I meant to take walks with you, of course.
Posted on 06-Jun-08 at 7:54 pm | Permalink
Joy Smith wrote:
homemade pork and spinach dumplings. (OMG with handmade skins and homegrown chives. Delicious!)<——— Do you have a recipe for this??? It sounds really good. I love your site/blog by the way. I added you to my own blogs under blogs I am reading, of course!
Posted on 10-Jun-08 at 9:42 pm | Permalink
mapgirl wrote:
Hi Joy,
I think this might have been a comment for another post where I mention the dumplings. But I’ll reply here anyway. They were made by a co-worker’s mother-in-law, not by me. I use store-bought skins, hence the deliciousness of his dumplings. My dumplings are pork, turkey, tofu with kimchee. Never spinach.
Posted on 11-Jun-08 at 10:13 am | Permalink